Tom is X'mas eve, but i have the least bit of interest to celebrate it. Well, just feel that there is no purpose to it, or rather, every year is the same - except for that one X'mas where i was in bangkok living like queen. No surprises, no excitement.. and to think that i was hoping for more this year... Yes, i'm grumbling about my bf again....
Its getting tired that i have to be the one who keep planning on what to do for every other occasions... Hey, i do feel the need to be like any other ladies, who wished to be surprised and wowed, once awhile. It has reach a point whereby if i do not take any action/plan for anything for that occasion, most likely we will end up spending that day in town with a dinner plus movie date. Yup, that was his "so-called" planning... not that alluring i would say.
Its ok for me, you know.. But for a few bdays, valentine's days, xmas-es, it starts to wear me off already. I just dont wish to say the 5 letter word, B-O-R-E-D. Frens always asked me, "you and your bf together for 5yrs! Not bored meh??" Haha... i just started to realise.....
Well, how should we survive, if we are married for life? What are we going to do for the rest of the time? I really do need new and fresh ideas man! I just have to resign to fate - the fate that it will always be me to try to add more colors to our already dull dates. Cos, if i have to wait for him to do it, cows will fly....
